Journal of inner work

…It is alienating and lonely in the beginning, but you need space and alone time to sit with your thoughts and reevaluate your existence. You want to take control of your life, happiness, and destiny. It feels like a painful internal war…

…Listen to your intuition/your higher self/your spirit. It will help you and guide you. It will speak calm and positive compared to your anxious mind. If you trust it, your mind won’t go in thousands of other negative directions…

…You make sense of past, bring your attention to today and improve your vision for future…

…Teachings and meditation help me to practice my negative state of mind which might be triggered again by certain situations or people. I think I will then be ready to transform my frustration and anger, then express my feelings with compassion…

… There is something that we ultimately know but tend to forget in our daily lives, and that is change. In the words of modern Buddhism “Everything is permanently impermanent”. Things are always consistently and constantly changing…

…When you feel it, realize it and say “thank you for warning me my body, but stop controlling me and let me do my stuff”. If you step back, you can see other possibilities, also find creative solutions…

Yes, I am a scholar, but also a human. I have been through tough times too. I got my dream “everything” in life, but still managed to sabotage myself. I have been spending hours, days, weeks and months to get my spirituality back, find my peace, and to be a better human…